tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-122730472011-07-13T04:02:46.370-07:00Thoughts on movies, pop culture, Asian American identity, Taiwan, English teaching, and, occasionally life.lovelesscynichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05596050666175550661noreply@blogger.comBlogger9961100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12273047.post-55588619152279006242008-12-31T18:50:00.000-08:002008-12-31T18:51:46.359-08:00

"Why wouldn't you just mark A?"--My classmate on the "expected grade" portion of our end of class surveys"My better is better than your better."--Another classmate

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for all the people who were snowed in in Seattle.

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Which is probably true, although it's only been 4 months. There are tons of people who take way longer hiatuses than that. How are things? Things are ok from where I'm at. Although to be honest I don't have much to say. Any time that I'm not eating or sleeping I'm probably working. Which is why over the break I got my annual celebratory post-final getting really sick. It was exciting. I've got a

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I've been in LA for about a month now. Not a whole hell of a lot to report so far. Although apparently it's a HUGE faux pas for grad students to use the undergrad library. Even if it's prettier and nicer. The business library is the best one, although its 4th floor is apparently a VIP section for VIP business students. On a certain level, this seems kind of natural for a business library.My

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I honestly think I'm maybe a little bit too much of an analytical machine to watch superhero movies anymore. The subtext just gets to me. Recently the last two movies I've seen in the theater were Iron Man and The Dark Knight. I really disliked Iron Man, mostly on the grounds of class antagonism, the protagonist is a rich, immature, selfish bastard who has had everything handed to him. He has one

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Why can't I think like that?

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Me: I really really really need to pack.My boss: I don't want to hear about it.

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sometimes I get really fed up with my apparent inability to take people at their word and trust that they'll follow through. I actually have some really good reasons, since I've gotten burned hella. And usually when I do rely on other people, it doesn't go very well. But at the same time, sometimes I wish I could just take people at their word. It would be a lot more emotionally healthy and I

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Vietnamese American coworker (setting other Vietnamese coworker up on a date): He drives a BMW, he works at Boeing....Vietnamese American coworker 2: But is he interested in social justice?

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by Silvia PlathOld man, you surface seldom.Then you come in with the tide's comingWhen seas wash cold, foam-Capped: white hair, white beard, far-flung,A dragnet, rising, falling, as wavesCrest and trough. Miles longExtend the radial sheavesOf your spread hair, in which wrinkling skeinsKnotted, caught, survivesThe old myth of originsUnimaginable. You float nearAs keeled ice-mountainsOf the north,

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When I am introduced to my roommate's parents and her mom acts like I'm hearing impaired, gesturing to herself and saying her name loudly and slowly.In my own fucking house, in my own fucking house.

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I don't know what took me this long, but I just finished watching Journey From The Fall directed by Ham Tran a few hours ago. It's probably a bit premature to write about it, because I'm still in the process of unpacking what I think about it.But it's pretty clear just from the opening shots that Ham Tran isn't just making your average movie. The storytelling seems to be a turn off for some

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Recently I've been reading James Baldwin's Notes of a Native Son, which is pretty awesome. It's rare I find a book which makes me want to underline everything in it, but that's definitely what I'm feeling here. I like essays sometimes because it's kind of like listening in at the most witty person at a dinner party expound at length on things. However, in Baldwin's case, sometimes it's depressing

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You know how 2046 was a kind of mediocre mashup of every theme Wong Kar Wai had played with in his entire film career? A sort of self referential exercise in narcissism?I just got done watching Kiyoshi Kurosawa's Retribution, which I, uh, found, on the internet. And although it's less self indulgent, simply because I don't think Kurosawa is as successful as Wong Kar Wai, so he gets less money,

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Friend whom I haven't seen in 6 years on seeing each other in person for the first time: Can I see your tattoo?(I show it to her.) Okay, that's reassuring.

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So apparently there's this big to-do about the test of black men w/ guns vs. white men w/ guns and reaction time. There's apparently been some rending of garments about whether in fact the test takers are racist. I was kind of curious to see if I was racist or not. I guess I've watched TV as much as most people and grown up in urban/suburban areas, and heard enough stories that I should be fairly

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We've had some people come and go around my house. One is apparently an Iraqi veteran with PTSD. (Hooray.) She's pretty annoying, but I don't think she's necessarily a bad person.The other person, is, well, ok. She's very nice, but um, you know, dammit, I'm fairly damn open minded, but really smoking pot at 6 AM is a little early. That's all.

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Random man: You look like you had a hard day at work!Me: (laughs)Random man: Are you a secretary?Me: No...Random man: You speak good English.Me: Thank you, I was born here.Random man: (awkward silence)Me (inwardly): Ha, ha, ha.

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"You know what I bet you would be good at, teaching ESL to Chinese people, you have that whole school teacher thing going on." New roommate, also Iraqi veteran, far too old for her age at 21, while also being kind of annoying.

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"In Bellingham, they have a whole club for white people who want to be Asian."Also in other news, my roommate's cat threw up in my room. Needless to say, I was not thrilled.

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FM doesn't necessarily make my world a better place, but they're eminently listenable. I'm glad that they've graduated from girls who look like they have naked pictures out there on the internet to women that look like car show models since their last video.

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Walking behind four punk-ish teenagers, a car drove by blaring bad trance-ish dance music. Simultaneously all 4 of them started dancing on the sidewalk. And as the car drove out of earshot, they kept walking. All without saying anything.

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Me: How do you like Seattle?New Boss: Oh it's great. There aren't very many blacks or Hispanics here. I feel very safe.Me: (resisting urge to just leave the room).........I don't think that all black people or Hispanic people are criminals. To self (Just think about the PhD, in only 5 months this will no longer be your problem.)There are no fucking words sometimes. There just aren't.

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Sometimes movie trailers can be an art. I think no matter how good the movie is, the trailer is exceptionally well put together. Honestly sometimes trailers are better than the movie itself. You can always imagine a better movie from the best images and excerpts. Also trailers have their own certain flow to them. I feel this one flows very well.

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I'm whiter than I thought. Ouch.Anyway, for the people who actually know me in real life, yes, I am going to go get a PhD. And live in the middle of nowhere and tell everyone how uncultured they are apparently. I will be going somewhere in Southern California. That much is certain. Most everything else is not certain, which would explain a 2 month bout with insomnia.More later.

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I went to Costco today with my father and his fiancee, and in a cart, I saw two boxes for some weight loss smoothie mix, and a strawberry cheesecake.

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I don't know what it is recently, but people, particularly male people, have a tendency to hit on me in and around areas related to the bus.This never used to happen before. As an aside, it's very difficult to not make eye contact for half an hour, when someone sits right opposite you and tries to make eye contact. Of course, as one of my roommates says, once you make eye contact, it's all lost.

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I'm really serious. I bought some coffee the other day, and I'm hoping Uwajimaya didn't lace it with something because I have been abnormally energetic and fucking euphoric all day.There has been a lot of developments in the land of the loveless cynic. I may or may not be relocating, dependent of course on whether I get funding for a PhD at the end of the summer.Anyway, one of the places is

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Vietnamese teacher complaining about his grandmother-esque boss yells at him all the time: She kills me all the time!Me: Maybe she yells at you because she loves you best.Vietnamese teacher: Oh please.

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someday I might have time to think or say something insightful again. Today was a day of schooling young punks, haven't done that since I left Taiwan. I may have a story about that at some point. Anyway, I was feeling sort of gloomy for some reason. Possibly because I didn't go outside all day. This is truly the funniest thing I have seen in a while. You should check it out. http://

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If what I wrote wouldn't be so depressingly emo. Probably it's better to not say anything at all.I've got insomnia again. Which makes everything either too fast or too slow. Anyway, I think I've got stuff to say. Maybe later.

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Spit frozen onto the sidewalk in clumps.

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I've mentioned this film before, but I feel I have a bit more to say about it now. I got the Japanese version for Christmas. Which has an extra 30 minutes in it. I think Bright Future has become one of my favorite existential Asian movies ever. So I was pretty excited to see them. I would say that the extra thirty minutes do not really elicit any breakthroughs or new interpretations of the movie.

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I successfully made oyako donburi! Hooray! I rarely make Japanese food successfully. My next project might be niku donburi. Or possibly making my father his (overdue) Christmas present pie.Yes, yes, Dad. I will remember to make you your pie.

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I spent the morning washing cars for the Red Cross, because, uh, Martin Luther King was all about washing cars for the Red Cross. It was seriously an exercise in futility since as we were washing them off, the ice was refreezing on the cars. The inner monologue of the Loveless Cynic was basically "Fuck fuck fuck, fucking ice, cannot fucking feel my fucking hands, fuck!" Let it not be said that I

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at the bus stopAfrican American man: Speak English!Asian lady: I speak English. You speak Chinese!

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At one point, someone in our AmeriCorps group turned to me and said, "Wow, our group is so white! You and Amy are the only two non-white people." My inner thought, was the same as what Amy said when I mentioned it to her later, "I knew that the second I walked in here."There are a lot of things about this set up that I really don't like. For example, our diversity training was a training on how

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Me: What, you think sound effects that you can't make?My sister: Sometimes.Me: Like what?My sister: Trumpets.Me: Trumpets?!My sister: Sometimes.

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Yes yes, I know everyone is talking/writing about the primaries. Still. I always liked Richardson for it, since y'know, he's got experience. Which y'know might be kind of important. But then this is America, we value style over substance.As for the whole Obama thing, well, I can't say that I'm not happy. I always wanted to like him, and I'm glad he's successful, but... Between him and Clinton, I

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Whenever I see Fred Thompson on Law and Order I want to throw something at the television. Not only because he's Fred Thompson, but because he reminds me of a particularly heinous boss I had. One, whom some readers of this blog who know me in real life will remember would some times say "Mah partner..." Never fails to send a shiver down my spine.Let's hope Fred Thompson doesn't start talking

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I had a diversity training with my AmeriCorps group today. Honestly, I really dread diversity training these days. Particularly since my group was composed of 22 white people, and me and an African American girl. Also the training was titled "White Privilege" which I don't really feel I need to know that much more about. Particularly since it doesn't apply to me. Mostly I dread diversity

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So yesterday, on my way to meet my friend on Capitol Hill, I took the bus. We were supposed to meet around 8:30 at night. Which is generally a bit later than I go out. Yes, yes, I know, I'm lame.Anyway, the driver let this guy on with a dog. Which was made much of by everyone. Later the driver let on a man with a rabbit. The man with the rabbit let the rabbit out of the case. And I believe the

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a music video that is not by The Flowers. Instead it's Asobi Seksu- Thursday.

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Sometimes it really seems like the more time I have the less time I actually make use of. If I'm really busy, for some reason, I'm able to get a lot more work/studying/whatever productive done. When I have large chunks or days of time, I spend a lot of time 發呆 (I'm not sure what the best translation of this would be, staring in to space, doing nothing?) rather than doing anything productive. I'm

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Hahaha, behold my messing about on the Chinese version of Youtube. Even more Flowers videos I haven't seen. Look upon my works and despair!Anyway, the more I watch, such as this early early videothe weirder it seems that these guys are apparently Olympic spokespeople. Their attitude really doesn't scream "sportsmanship"I realize that this must get kind of tiresome. But honestly, if you're still

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About a year after it was relevant. And therefore with lots of spoilers. If you don't want to know the end, don't read it.Oh how I wish I could go back in time and not watch this movie. I have often observed to friends and acquaintances, that there's nothing worse than a movie that wastes a good idea. Which is pretty much what Pan's Labyrinth was.It wasn't a terrible movie, but it certainly

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Among this pile of cash, were three $100 bills and 1 $50 bill. Our fees are either $7 or $20. $7 if you're on public assistance of any kind or over 55 and live in Seattle. $20 for everyone else. WHAT KIND OF SANE PERSON CARRIES AROUND 100 BILLS? And why do you use them to pay a $20 fee?! Jesus.

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On Thursday, I spent 5 hours stapling and unstapling money. We (i.e. I) did new student registration, and ended up with $800 or so in student fees. Have I ever mentioned that my math sucks? It sucks. I should never be placed in charge of money ever. The first time I counted it, I was 6 dollars over. The next time I counted it I was $80 short. After much panicking and flapping I discovered that

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Life Sucks Nirvana. I no longer care about anything. I'm just going to smile and listen to music. Because I'm at my limit and I just don't care anymore.

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This video is probably funniest if you've watched as much Mandarin pop as I have. Since it makes fun of some of the common tropes of the "love" music videos. However, it's equally amusing to watch Da Zhangwei, the lead singer, attempt to look soulful and fail miserably. (The narrowing of his eyes equals depth!) He's way more fun when he's bouncing around acting like a 15 year old. I'm actually

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this clearly and succinctly sums up my feelings about the Pilgrims.

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I'm honestly not sure why, but this bird looks hella emo.

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in A Wild Sheep Chase where the narrator's girlfriend asks him to talk for five minutes. Apparently she gets every new person she meets to do this and then judges them completely opposite to how they portray themselves. I always found this do be a rather interesting idea. And most recently I've even put an amended rule of my own into practice, I now mostly judge people completely opposite to how

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to go back in time and assassinate the person who first thought that techno remixes were a good idea. On occasion, they don't make a song worse, but in general, they very rarely make the song better.

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courtesy of 生氣亞洲男 (angry asian man). It's about taking the bus in Seattle, and features Beacon Hill. What's not to like.

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is seriously the most delicious thing I have ever tasted. I also bought a giant loaf of Japanese square bread at the store. I was living my 9 year old dream yesterday. I think until I was about nine, I never had white bread, and my father brought some Japanese white bread home from the store. My mother almost strangled him I think.Anyway, why am I posting disconnected thoughts about food and

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If/when I become a C-pop megastar, I will not do the following things:1) Make a music video featuring myself as some kind of Asian Cowboy featuring random white children, Riverdancing, dutch hats, fifties dancing and line dancing, in some bizarre patische of "period" America. NOT COOL2) Make a puke worthy vanity music video. At least this time the song is ok.3) I will not make a movie called Kung

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Me: 你以爲你的名字擁有女生的味道嗎?Friend: Where did that question come from?Me: Well recently I've been having a lot of conversations about Chinese names, and your name came up. My friend was like "Wow, that name is kind of girly,"which surprised me.I didn't think it was that girly particularly. But then I'm not Chinese.Friend: Yeah, i think i complained about this before.It is kind of girly.Me: I thought it

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Thank you so much, gmail, for archiving everything ever.Friend: There's this non profit called business for diplomatic action that's about curbing anti-americanism abroad. they came to us for a plan to help america become less douche-y So everyone stops hating us (without changing public policy)and the first freedom center came to us for ideas on getting people to talk about religion so it's

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Me: It seems like any other dialect is better to swear in than Mandarin.Roommate: Well of course! Any standard language isn't as good to swear in, like British English. What kinds of swear words to they have, bugger, bollocks.Me: That doesn't seem that bad.Roommate: No! Bugger's not that bad. In America we would say "assfucker" or something like that. Bugger is really not that bad.

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nothing sadder than the last train to anywherepulling out of the station.

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by Marilyn HackerSomeone I used to be friends with walked off with a copy of Babel-17. The fact that this poem was in it was one of my greatest regrets, that, and it was a pretty good book too.Growing older I descend November.The asymptotic cycle of the yearplummets to now. In crystal reveriesI pass beneath a fixed line of white treeswhere dry leaves lie for footsteps to dismember.They crackle

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Just to prove that I actually listen to stuff that's Chinese pop. ..... Not that there would be anything wrong with me if I did.

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If Ｉ had my way, I would spend all day listening to music and watching Hell Girl all day.

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A link, via Angry Asian Man, about Adrian Tomine and Derek Kirk Kim's graphic novels. If I ever get some money, I'm going to check them out.And also this movie review. Perhaps I'm just totally immature, but I giggled out loud reading this.

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As most people who read this site are probably well aware, I am a big nerd, I am a sucker for anime, and I am also a big big sucker for things that look pretty. A couple days ago, I got a chance to watch Tekkon Kinkreet, a new Japanese anime movie that's been getting a lot of buzz. You can watch the opening credits, below if you like. Although the quality of the video's not that great, it at

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If my hair falls out this month it will be because of my GRE scores. I need to access my test scores. Will they let me? No! I have all the information! I can't have misentered my own birthday 4 fucking times!If my hair falls out, I will mail it to ETS.AFTER I ATTACH IT TO THE HEAD OF A DECOMPOSED RACCOON.

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Clearly I've been crazy busy because I haven't really noticed.So here you go. I told you happiness was a new Flowers album.

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Apparently blogger is having issues with uploading pictures, so only one for tonight.Cheers.

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Me: Hey, because I was talking to you this whole time, I burned my eggplant.Roommate: That's ok. Because eggplant is disgusting.

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is a new Flowers album.Also a friend and I were having a conversation inspired by this comic, and I think we started out with names for drinks, and then tried to figure out which kind of drink an author would be. I think by the end we had decided that Sherman Alexie would be something involving whiskey in some way.So what kind of drink would your favorite author be?

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Do the conductors of the subway trains really say stuff as funny as what they say in Overheard in New York?

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of caffeine sleeplessness, pacing the groceries stores looking for the cheapest brand, wearing one's clothes inside out, and prolonged periods of self doubt.I hate applying for graduate school. I also hate not having money. However I kind of got into this mess of my own free will, so I can't really complain. Moving forward is the most important thing now, although sometimes moving forward feels

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Mom's house.Pictures from the car are always a crapshoot.The old Suburban Wasteland of my Home Town.P.S., relax, there's some pictures in color, well, maybe a few.

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Me: What is a habitual drunkard?Student: Someone who drinks too much coffee.General laughterMe: 登先生，如果是咖啡，那，我是habitual drunkard. （Mr.Deng, if it's coffee, than I'm a habitual drunkard.)

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so now I'm semi recovered from being sick. For serious, only just now am I recovering from being sick. I think it's been like three weeks or something. I took the stupidest route possible when confronted with a fever which is to pile on the covers and go to bed. Fever nightmares are the worst. However, when I woke up, my fever had broken. Although I was left with a positively Dickensian cough,

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I have a question for everyone. Do you generally think that the Police Department is a benevolent organization dedicated to serving people? Because my AmeriCorps swearing in thing was presided over by not only one but two police chiefs. One of them being the Seattle Police Chief. I haven't been in the country for a long time, but from what I remember the SPD was not particularly well thought

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Housemate: Ick, stinky cheese.Me: What kind of cheese was it?Housemate: Goat cheese. I thought it was ok, but then I smelled it and it smelled like (Other housemate's) sponge.

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Housemate: You look great. (gesturing at buttondown shirt and sweater vest) More like a student than a teacher, because you're so young. That's a good thing right?Me: Um...

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T.S. EliotTwelve o'clock.Along the reaches of the streetHeld in a lunar synthesis,Whispering lunar incantationsDissolve the floors of the memoryAnd all its clear relations,Its divisions and precisions.Every street-lamp that I passBeats like a fatalistic drum,And through the spaces of the darkMidnight shakes the memoryAs a madman shakes a dead geranium.Half-past one,The street-lamp sputtered,The

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when coming up with our "group norms"Person 1: I think we should have up there "care-fronting"Boss: What is care-fronting?Person 1: It's when you confront someone because you care about them. So it's not confrontation, because you care. It's care-fronting.Boss: I don't think I'm comfortable with any kind of confrontation.Person 2: How about we just say "no fronting"?

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"A person who makes you afraid." my student's (tongue-in-cheek) definition of the word terrorist.

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life was a lot simpler when I didn't talk to anyone.

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It's been (relatively) silent up in here for a while. Perhaps in part to moving and then a low level continuous sick, as well as some preturbing insomnia. However, longtime readers know that insomnia and bitching about insomnia is practically the status quo around here.The housemates are good, suspiciously good, next week they'll probably turn out to all be some sort of cult or give money to Pat

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Roommate: So how many Asians were at in your year at school?Me: Five.Roommate: (not listening) No no, **** is a competitive school. I'm not talking about Asian Americans, how many Asian nationals were there at your school?Me: Five. (to demonstrate) There was me, Miri ***, Hyun ****, Michelle ***, and Meng **. Five.(silence)

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Friend: I think I'm prejudiced against people with eyes that are too close together or too wide apart. Like Brandi.Me: What are you talking about? She's a pretty girl.Friend: Oh she's a pretty girl. I just bet it would be pretty hard to sneak up on her.

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After the bus stop thing yesterday, I was talking to a friend about it, and she mentioned her own strategy of putting on an old hoodie and cap when she rode the bus, to avoid unwelcome attention. At a certain point, how different is this from putting on a veil?

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